26 June 2012 @ 10:26 am
I kind of disappeared from LJ...it happens.  Tumblr moves a lot more quickly and my life's been kind of weird the past several months.  So here's a quick rundown:

I got fired around mid-to-late February.   There were a lot of feelings surrounding this, the largest of which was embarrassment.  It's never easy to admit these things and I spent about a week hyperventilating about what the fuck I was going to do.   Then I got taken on full time at the second job and have since earned a raise that's put me back into stability.  I still have a lot of mixed feelings about that last job, though I definitely do not miss it.  Mainly because I feel like I was fired as a scapegoat for my supervisor's BS. 

But that's reopening an old wound and let's not, shall we?

The "new" job can be tedious at times (what job can't?), but is mostly just awesome.  I really get to flex my artistic muscles besides doing web based stuff.  And the Commander likes my work enough that most of the time it remains reasonably intact (as opposed to ex-Lady Boss ripping everything to shreds for no good reason. Like forcing me to put Comic Sans on everything).  Even when it doesn't, I understand her reasoning as to why. 

The only draw back to this is that it leaves me creatively drained come quitting time.  Most evenings I don't want to do a damn thing except talk to friends and game a bit...so that's what I've been doing.  XD Not the best response ever.  And addictive.

Most recently I acquired a new kitten, named Sillabub:


That's another awesome thing about the job:  we can bring our pets to work.  She still not too crazy about her carrier, but it's getting better.  Next on the list is leash training.

Also: if there's anyone in the SouthEast Texas / SouthWest Louisiana area who wants a kitten my sister still has four she's trying to find homes for. Most of them are grey / tan, though.

So...yeah.  That about sums it up.  Job change, kitten, Mass Effect and Dragon Age.   XD I'll try to get back to posting more regularly.

20 January 2012 @ 10:05 am
Sir Sales Manager comes in and asks how I feel about having my old marketing position back--HE mentions that he thought I seemed somewhat frustrated with the office work the past month or two (note: I've been doing that job for over a year, so a little frustration in the last two months is not exactly indicative of me hating the job, IMHO.) I agree that, yes, I was a tiny bit frustrated in general, and that, after awhile, explaining the same thing repetitively to customers who don't want to listen (IE, the exact same customer who asks the exact same questions month in, month out, despite having been with us for over a decade) can get a little old.  This is not something I ever said TO a customer, or got frustrated about to their face.  I know better.

So he immediately puts it off on my generation having no patience for anything, ever

Um, no.  Thank you very much, but I put up with a LOAD of shit with a smile.  My expressing a moment's frustration (BECAUSE YOU ASKED) does not make me, or people loosely related to me by age alone, "constantly impatient with other people's 'stupid' even though we've had to watch y'all grow up and let me tell you~."

Of course, this is the same guy who thinks he's not racist because he's "colourblind," proudly proclaims his "Non-PC" status at least five times a day, likes to go off about how he managed to pay off his student loans with no problem twenty fucking years ago and doesn't see how anything has changed in that time so what are these people bitching about, and believes that socialism equates to communism. 

28 December 2011 @ 12:20 pm
Fic Written:

Sailor Moon
Us and Them - Complete
This Sweet Madness - Chapters 4-8 + Epilogue & four intermissions
This Glorious Sadness - Chapters 1, 2, + 1 intermission.

Dragon Age
Oh Hell I Don't Know - Dragon Age - Drabble
Zevran thing - Dragon Age - Unpublished Drabble
The Lucky Ones - Dragon Age - in progress

What People do to Other Souls - Resident Evil - mostly finished, unposted - cowritten
Solving for X - Green Hornet - Complete
Relief - Harry Potter - Complete
White Blank Page - Harry Potter - eh?

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted?

It doesn't look like much, but given that TSM & TGS are massive (each the size of a novel), I'd say it's about what I predicted. Though I had hoped to finish another chapter of TGS.  ...still have a few days to do that.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January 2011?

Dragon Age.  XD I didn't even know it existed.  Though of those I did know existed, I think Green Hornet is more surprising.  I was never into super heros.

What's your favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest?

This Glorious Sadness. It's come a long way, and the fact that it is actually going to be finished is just...thrilling.  Now if only I can do this with original work. XD

Did you take any writing risks this year? (See above for unexpected pairings, etc.) What did you learn from them?

I'm equally worried over some of the subject matter in TGS and UaT, though as UaT is complete and no one has throttled me for it, I can stop worrying there.  I try to be as respectful to foreign cultures as I can, but writing the culture clash can lead into dangerous territory sometimes. 

Do you have any fanfic goals for the New Year?

Finish TGS, What People do to Other Souls (if I can get my co-writer to comply), and The Lucky Ones.  If I can finally knock out Adventures in Tokyoland I'll be happy.

My Favorite Story:
This Glorious Sadness

My Best Story:
Us and Them or Solving for X

Story Most Underappreciated by the Universe:
Repeating myself from past years:  Let me go on record as saying that I HATE this question. But as I can't get myself to edit it out of the meme just cause I don't like it...

...I actually don't have an answer for this.  Really, I don't.  They're all about equally appreciated, or else haven't been published.

Most Fun:
Solving for X.  Which makes sense, because it's pure angst.

Most Disappointing:
White Blank Page.  I have ideas~ but no inclination to write on it.

Most Sexy and Best Sexy Moment:
Us and Them. That it's the only one which has any kind of sexy moment in it at all helps.

Hardest to Write:
Toss up between Us and Them, and The Lucky Ones.  UaT had a word limit on it because of Ficathon and it was murder trying to wrap it up appropriately while staying within the limit.  TLO is another of those I have all the ~ideas~ about, but piecing them together is like pulling teeth. 

Most Unintentionally Telling
I still have trouble figuring out what "telling" means in this context.  As in Show-Don't-Tell or...idk.  The one that has more of your personal feelings in than you intended?  Either way, I'm gonna be a little egotistical and say that I don't think any of them fall into either category.  :/  It's one of the few things I'm proud of.
21 October 2011 @ 03:00 pm

So I’m sitting at my desk being all

And then Sir Service Manager comes up and he’s all

And I’m all

And finally he leaves, so I can be more like

But then Sir Service Dude comes in, and he wants to be all

And then Sir Service Manager comes back, and they’re both all

about whatever jerk-off-of-the-week is giving them problems right now, while I’m just sitting there like

because I don’t want to look like

but goddammit, this happens every. single. day.

And that is why my lunch is always cold.

04 October 2011 @ 10:44 am
This Glorious Sadness [SM]

12300 < 90000 (13.67%)

1/8 chapters complete, first draft.  I'm wondering if I can get at least four chapters done by New Years.   Possible.

What People do to Other Souls [RE]

31300 < 60000 (52.17%)

Damn near done.  We've got it edited to about 50%, and only the ending left to draft.  Yay!

Back Burner:
    Witchy Woman [SM] 
    Yield for Nothing [SM]
    Adventures in Tokyoland [SM]
30 November 2010 @ 02:19 pm
I spent most of my lunch break staring at a not-so-blank page and wondering why I couldn't seem to write anything else on a story that obviously needs to be continued.  Strangely, as I usually hate my writing shortly after "finishing" it, the bits and pieces I have of Yield For Nothing are something I'm still proud of, almost a  year after their creation.  The first chapter needed some mild editing, but I worked it out... and unfortunately cannot seem to write anymore of it.  I like it, I want to work on it--I have this horrid desire to surrender a few nights to it when I should be working on something vastly more important--but try as I might, that next scene just will not appear.

gruh. Ripping hair out now.
14 November 2010 @ 09:55 am
Last night, in the midst of slacking off, I finally got around to watching Scott Pilgrim Vs. the World. I'd heard phenomenal praise of this film as being one of the best in a long time, but hadn't managed to go see it while it was still in theatres--which, it turns out, was actually a mistake.

If you haven't seen this movie yet, I'd recommend you do -- IF you're a gamer geek and/or movie fanatic. If you're not, this movie probably isn't for you. The film requires that you drop your suspension of disbelief to record lows as people calmly accept the fact that, apparently, everyone is some kind of kick-ass, ninja-like supernatural fighter with no explanation what so ever. There are some shots of utter disbelief from everyone at the beginning, then they just seem to forget that they ever objected to it. Despite this, the effects were amazing, the editing and direction was spectacular, and the actors were, for the most part, very well chosen.
Spoilers and Ranting )

TL;DR: Bitching about Love vs Lust confusion in movies. Very important stuff, I'm sure.

11 November 2010 @ 09:54 am
Heavy duty lessons and levels of emotional intensity, along with ‘should I stay or should I go’ scenarios, and reminders of people who have up and left; any and all of things are what’s on top of the stack at the moment. You know for sure that you’ll make it through this, but right now you’re feeling like it would be great if someone or something would come to the rescue. If I told you that this too shall pass would it help? Beyond that, it looks to me like this isn’t over yet. Don’t succumb to despair. If you play your cards right your deepest wish will come true.
~Cal Garrison

Once again, this woman delivers the advice I needed exactly when and why I needed it. What the frick.


Page nine of WS still isn't done. Why? Because I am an over-ambitious idiot who insists on attempting to draw detailed backgrounds with complicated perspectives. And did I mention horses? A freaking lot of horses. Next time I insist on pairing a tribal culture with a whole herd of the damned things, please shoot me.

That being said, I am actually pretty proud of myself for this.  The scripting is coming along well, though I would like a second opinion on it (my beta is awesomely awesome, but I'm a firm believer in multiple sets of eyes) as my beta-the-second has given up her position due to RL issues.  If anyone on my FL has some free time and wouldn't mind, I'd appreciate it.  Totally willing to trade beta-ing, or possibly art sketches (though please understand there's a wait on the latter.  Standing commissions and all that jazz).

I'm considering switching over to Let It Be next week, as a bit of a "break," though I really need to be working on Endangered as well. LiB is only six pages, though, so in a week I could have a complete short story. Either way, I think that will be done by mid December. 

Back on Wind Spirits, though, I've decided to give myself a firm deadline of January 1st, no matter what. That day, the site is launching officially, and the first seven pages are going to be released, at the very least.  This gives me a little under two months to finish the first chapter, and retool the website. Considering what I've proven I can get done when I have a short deadline, I think that's doable.  But this involves some other considerations, like promotion posters and banner ads.  I've been reading over articles on marketing, and... well that's what I do at work, but I'm still not sure what my best bet on marketing for an article would be.  Especially when it comes to social networks.

I've been told that StumbleUpon works very well for some people.  I recently joined up and took a look around it, and it does seem as though it could work--but in order for it to pick up initial momentum, several people have to "stumble" your website, not just one. So, question number one to cyberspace, how many people use Stumble, here? How many people actively "like" websites on StumbleUpon?

Then there's the ever-popular facebook.  Some webcomics have success in making something called "fanpages" for their comics, and tend to generate some mild traffic from that. I know I have friends on FB, though I don't currently use it myself.  Is this a feature that, hypothetically , you would use?

Aside from that, though, all I've heard is mixed results.  Twitter works for some crowds, it doesn't for others.  Advertisement programs, like Project Wonderful, work for things, and not for others. As those programs are usually paid, I'm not sure how viable that option really is at the moment.  Are there any social sites that I haven't heard about, which you use? 

And I think that's enough rambling from me for now. XD I have got to get better at this whole... article writing jazz.


05 November 2010 @ 10:42 am
1) What songs do you find particularly spiritually meaningful?

The Goddess and the Weaver by Spiral Dance has always been one of my favorites, but there's also  Fires at Midnight by Blackmore's Night, Witch's Rune by Inkubus Sukkubus, The Mystic's Dream by Loreena McKinnet, and Christians and the Pagans, by Dar Williams.

2) Where do you draw the line between "honoring other cultures" and "cultural appropriation?"

I don't.  Quite frankly, "cultural appropriation" is the same thing as "inspiration," is the same thing as "things change, deal with it."  So  you go to another culture and see that they have this tradition which is cool, and kind of a Good Idea, so you learn about it and then try to do something similar.  Congratulations, you just did the same thing our ancestors have been doing for millenia. (And when I say "our," I mean "everyone's.") There isn't any such thing as an untouched, holy culture that got all its ideas/traditions from... I don't know - the air? They spoke with one another, changed their minds, chucked some traditions and altered others, and changed. Constantly. That's how humanity works.

3) What's your opinion on the witchcraft-and-magic coverage in the media?

At this point, I'm just tired of being pissed off about it.  It still makes me sigh every time I hear someone speak of witchcraft with amusement or fear, but I acknowledge that 99% of those people have no idea what they're talking about.  Even if they did, they may not agree.  I'd actually venture that most of them would still be amused - and I'm OK with that. To each their own.

And quite honestly, I think a lot of Pagans shoot themselves in the foot when it comes to public relations.

Going on TV and talking about how your "real name" is Unicorn Swirly Sparkle Pants and you're a level 13 high priestess of Gozer who talks to fairies and cruises the moon waves every solstice... even I, a fellow pagan, can understand why no one takes you seriously. Sorry, but that's the truth.   Talk about your belief in the Gods and Goddesses, by all means, but put an emphasis on charity work and community values - keep your crazy in a closet, please.

Better yet, take a step back and consider, for a moment, how most people (who aren't members of this group) react to the nutter Evangelicals who think that babbling incoherently and having violent spasms is "speaking in tongues."  How exactly is that any different from a pagan who claims that a 15$, gaudy mirror they bought in a pawn shop was a "gift from a dragon?" (Seriously, I've had that conversation with someone before, and I still think he was off his bloody rocker.)   The truth is, it isn't different at all.

So yes. While media representations of pagans mostly just annoy the piss out of me... it is, sadly, just a mirror reflection of the very worst (and unfortunately, loudest) of our kind.

4) Do you wear Pagan jewelry in public?

I don't have any. XD

5) Do you believe a person or coven is responsible for the actions of the people they initiate?

Yes and no.

I believe that any organization holds some responsibility for the sort of people that it associates with.  Though the organization cannot control the actions the individuals within it takes, it can hold them responsible for their actions.

If a member of your church/coven/religious-whatever has been making a public ass of themselves in a way that invokes their religious beliefs, and your organization takes no action to either reprimand this member or else disassociate yourselves from their company, then their actions are applicable to the entire organization.  No ifs, ands or butts.  Your harboring this person automatically includes you in whatever it is that they were saying or doing.

For example:   Let's say that "Andy" has been seen on the local news repeatedly spouting off anti-gay propaganda, and backing it with religious zealotry. It is a well known fact that Andy is a deacon of Generic Church of Christ - which he also names on the local channel.  Though Generic Church of Christ claims that they do not teach anti-gay propaganda and do not back his claims, they allow him to continue his work as a deacon in the church.  No matter what they have said to defend themselves, these are just words and not properly backed by action.  Unless Generic Church of Christ revokes his deacon-ship, and removes him from their organization's leadership (at the very least), then they are backing his anti-gay vitriol.

The same applies to any religious organization, so far as I'm concerned.  Coven, temple, church, whatever. You have a responsibility to lead by your actions, as well as your word.

/takes a step off the soapbox/