26 June 2012 @ 10:26 am
I kind of disappeared from LJ...it happens.  Tumblr moves a lot more quickly and my life's been kind of weird the past several months.  So here's a quick rundown:

I got fired around mid-to-late February.   There were a lot of feelings surrounding this, the largest of which was embarrassment.  It's never easy to admit these things and I spent about a week hyperventilating about what the fuck I was going to do.   Then I got taken on full time at the second job and have since earned a raise that's put me back into stability.  I still have a lot of mixed feelings about that last job, though I definitely do not miss it.  Mainly because I feel like I was fired as a scapegoat for my supervisor's BS. 

But that's reopening an old wound and let's not, shall we?

The "new" job can be tedious at times (what job can't?), but is mostly just awesome.  I really get to flex my artistic muscles besides doing web based stuff.  And the Commander likes my work enough that most of the time it remains reasonably intact (as opposed to ex-Lady Boss ripping everything to shreds for no good reason. Like forcing me to put Comic Sans on everything).  Even when it doesn't, I understand her reasoning as to why. 

The only draw back to this is that it leaves me creatively drained come quitting time.  Most evenings I don't want to do a damn thing except talk to friends and game a bit...so that's what I've been doing.  XD Not the best response ever.  And addictive.

Most recently I acquired a new kitten, named Sillabub:


That's another awesome thing about the job:  we can bring our pets to work.  She still not too crazy about her carrier, but it's getting better.  Next on the list is leash training.

Also: if there's anyone in the SouthEast Texas / SouthWest Louisiana area who wants a kitten my sister still has four she's trying to find homes for. Most of them are grey / tan, though.

So...yeah.  That about sums it up.  Job change, kitten, Mass Effect and Dragon Age.   XD I'll try to get back to posting more regularly.

20 January 2012 @ 10:05 am
Sir Sales Manager comes in and asks how I feel about having my old marketing position back--HE mentions that he thought I seemed somewhat frustrated with the office work the past month or two (note: I've been doing that job for over a year, so a little frustration in the last two months is not exactly indicative of me hating the job, IMHO.) I agree that, yes, I was a tiny bit frustrated in general, and that, after awhile, explaining the same thing repetitively to customers who don't want to listen (IE, the exact same customer who asks the exact same questions month in, month out, despite having been with us for over a decade) can get a little old.  This is not something I ever said TO a customer, or got frustrated about to their face.  I know better.

So he immediately puts it off on my generation having no patience for anything, ever

Um, no.  Thank you very much, but I put up with a LOAD of shit with a smile.  My expressing a moment's frustration (BECAUSE YOU ASKED) does not make me, or people loosely related to me by age alone, "constantly impatient with other people's 'stupid' even though we've had to watch y'all grow up and let me tell you~."

Of course, this is the same guy who thinks he's not racist because he's "colourblind," proudly proclaims his "Non-PC" status at least five times a day, likes to go off about how he managed to pay off his student loans with no problem twenty fucking years ago and doesn't see how anything has changed in that time so what are these people bitching about, and believes that socialism equates to communism. 

27 September 2011 @ 08:58 am
Yesterday was Monday.

13 July 2011 @ 02:54 pm
This is what happens to my nights when I have caffeine:

cut for weirdness )

...it doesn't really make much sense, I know, but it was creepy as all get out when I was "there."  The sad part is, I kind of think it'd make an interesting story if it were cleaned up.
30 June 2011 @ 10:04 am
There are so many things to do! 

Delta H starts tomorrow, at 3pm if I'm reading this correctly.   Set up is 10am to 3pm, and since I have jack squat to set up, I'll probably be there at about 1pm--just to make sure that nothing goes wrong.  It'll also be the day I get to man my table alone, and I'd be lying if I said I weren't freaking out about that a little.  I'm a bit of a pessimist by nature, and I keep expecting something to go horridly wrong.  Not that Ami will be much help against things going wrong, but at least she'd provide a witness and good commentary.   Anyway, she's due to arrive sometime Friday night or Saturday morning, and will be with me the rest of the con.  My BFF rules.

Everything else is running...quasi-smooth.  About the time I went to make art prints I realize that I have very little I am comfortable selling in a roomful of children.  Though artistic nudity isn't banned by the cons, there are some display measures that have to be taken, which I'm really not sure about.  If I have time I may ask the director and figure something out.  But that still leaves the fact that I have a hang up about selling things with nudity in front of children, plus the idea that I might mistakenly sell some to a minor and what that could bring on my head.

Which I have mixed feelings about.  On one hand, I find it incredibly silly that a little nudity is such a big issue.  It's just skin (fictional skin at that) and completely tasteful.  On the other hand, I was as much raised in this puritanical society as everyone else that makes said puritanical society, and my sensibilities are bruised at even the thought of taking these prints to a print shop--much less trying to sell them. 

When I take the nude works out of the equation, I'm left with four things I am not entirely ashamed to ask money for.  Five, if you count the 4x6 sailor moon chibi (which I'll have a small number of prints of).  This is somewhat pathetic and I should really do something about that.  But not right now, I don't have time.

I got my first print run done last night, and for cheaper than I thought I'd be able to.  I also printed some very simple business cards that I plan to hand out to anyone who wants to look me up after the con.  The backs are blank, and I intend to doodle on them if I have time.  Beyond that, my prints are going into a binder that people can flip through, and I'm making a card to display the buttons on which I'll have one of my dolls (Tarnish) holding.  After debating it, I figured her in her most "animu" outfit might help me attrack some attention.  There will be a few other people from the doll group there, so if they bring some of theirs we may just end up with a random doll shoot.

Which reminds me that I still haven't gotten a replacement battery for my camera.  So, if I have pictures of the con itself, they're very likely to be terrible cell phone pictures.  Sorry! 

Other than that, I need to get a tablecloth for the table (I'm thinking something obnoxious and bright), make sure I have drawing supplies handy, and to complete my inventory.  Oh, and make sandwiches to bring.  And charge my cell phone. And bring headphones.  And a water bottle.  And transfer my writing files to my netbook so that I can plug away at the novel if there's a lull and I have nothing else to do.  And hope there's somewhere to plug in the net-book. 

Speaking of, I'm making a cursory attempt at Camp NaNoWriMo.  Finishing TSM has put me into a state of "oh, hay, maybe I can finish something!" Not that TSM doesn't have it's faults (I will be going back and editing it, especially those first two chapters), but it is at least a novel-length work that got finished.  Sorta.  Kinda.  Maybe.  I need to stop thinking about this.

Not promising I'll ever finish a Nano, though, since I keep piddling out on things like Mango every month.  Wind Spirits isn't dead, either, for anyone actually wondering.  It is slow as frozen molasses, but it isn't dead.  I will, hopefully, get back to working on it more regularly once Delta H is past me. 

Frankly, even if this weekend bombs entirely it will still be worth a four-day weekend. 

12 May 2011 @ 11:15 pm

So this morning I started off like


My wallet got pump-jacked, I hadn't had my coffee, I was late to work (two minutes, but still), and the phones would not stop doing this

while I was trying to prep our driver and get him out the door.

Then our accounting software went

and our network server went

and our IT people went

and Lady Boss and I went

and then customers started going

and then the accounting software went

and the electricity went

and our customers went

and we went

and then our printer said

and so I was like

and then my boss gave me a raise.


I... haven't posted in awhile.  XD it isn't so much that I've forgotten about this place, or the people I know here, but more that I don't feel it appropriate to spam with random bits of info or retarded comments.  That's what Tumblr and Twitter are for.  Speaking of, I use both now... a lot. If anyone else has one and wouldn't mind my following, I'd love to link up. :D 

Also, I really need to stop saying "never." I swore I would never use twitter, it was dumb, etc. etc. Now I'm addicted.  Damn hypocritical nature.  To add insult to injury, I am now on the fast track to becoming a Trekkie--also something I swore would never happen.  TNG is just too awesome to ignore, however, no matter it's early 90s-ness.

A real status update to follow at some point.  Ja ne.

For my own reference:  stamps.com


A rainbow rat
A checkered cat
Go tail in tail along the road
The mouse is pleased
The moon is cheese
The sun is shining hot and cold

~ The Singing Sea - The Seatbelts; Yoko Kanno

So my obsession with the Seatbelts just keeps getting deeper and deeper. They have now inspired me to paint. Yes, paint. Me. I'm probably in more shock about this than I have a right to be.
Yay for crappy cell-phone pictures! It isn't quite done, yet; I plan to finish it tomorrow. There are also two other canvases I prepped at the same time, and a few more ideas rumbling about in there. Oh Lords and Ladies, what have I gotten myself into?

Also, the mouse is metallic. Cause that's awesome.

01 December 2010 @ 09:43 am
The best you can do is stay centered. Too many things are whipping you around for you to think that any of them will remain permanent or constant. This is not just about people; it’s about places and things. And it’s also about; what are you really after and what can you do about it now? If anything, the last few months have shown you how much you’ve gotten caught up in other people’s energy as well as their problems. Minus all of that what would your life be like? Don’t over respond to these changes. Step back and let them rearrange your perspective.
~Cal Garrison


It's the first of December. This means that I have twenty-five days to finish my Gift List, commissions, and the first chapter of Wind Spirits. Hooooboy. But I brought this on myself, really. I don't want to have to set Wind Spirits' release back further, but I'd rather that than push it up without at least ten-fifteen pages done.

Right now, five are inked. Of those, two are coloured. I have eleven penciled, and several more thumb-nailed. And I'm a little stuck on the rewrite of CH3. It's a tough point to get through. I can do this, though, right? Stupid question, please don't beat me. XD

Despite all of that, I'm starting to jones for a new layout again. This time I kind of want to make art for it. Endangered, Wind Spirits, or fanart? I'm kind of leaning toward Endangered--mostly as Wind Spirits is hard to get around the naked portion, and I'm not sure how that would look to people who don't know... Ok. I'm very aware of how that would look to those who don't know about WS. Despite everything, appearances do matter for some things.

For those of you waiting on my fanfics: I'm sorry. Odds are that nothing but tiny one-shots are going to be coming out of me all month; possibly longer. I just have too much to work on, and if I stop to do that, it really is a waste of time. Of course, if anyone likes my fanwork they've probably come to realize, by now, just how ungodly slow I am at producing anything. XD

In other news, I'm back on my Seatbelts kick.


Christmas Gift List 2010

Mom & Dad - Abstract painting, sketch completed. Want painting of dogs. References compiled.
Nana & Grandpa - Abstract painting, sketch completed
The Girl - Something gay (no, really.)
Ami - Tier artwork - no progress
Sandy - in progress - sketching.
Kim - Art of Kor; no progress
D - no frippin clue, also b-day present
Rick - bug mother for possibility
Super Secret Thing - Painting in progress
Endangered Christmas Pic - ditto

Rose - Sketch being fixed
Kane - Sketch being fixed
Sandy - Not yet started

Endangered - Page 4 in progress
Wind Spirits - CH1 at some stage of production